Love? what a cliche word you uttered
looking at you, you quiver like a coward
Thinking your evil will rule this time
While in fact vengeance today is mine..

I hold the cruelest thorns in my hands
Kissing you with poisonous lips,
Holding you tight in my arms
As you slowly bleed, I eclipse

Long time ago you said you fooled me
And I cried to you on my knees
This time you plead for another chance
Whilst you do worse than you ever can

You once haunted me in my dreams
Left me waking up engulfing my tears
This time, right now the fight will begin
But you will bleed till death states my win

This is actually real ..

I lost you..I lost the sunshine to my days, I lost the gentleness of the breeze that comes at summer nights to fill me with fresh feelings..
I lost the innocence of the yore, the laughter of before..I lost you..
Years passed me by, horizons died right before my weary eyes, yet you never came back. Tears went dry, smiles went fake..I lost the moment you used to take..
I yearn for a quick look in the eyes, I miss hellos before goodbyes..I miss you..
Mesmerized by the beauty of spring trees, yet I feel like a cold stone in a warm summer night, I feel like an exiled, neglected shell on the shore, stirred by the merciless waves of the ocean.

A feeling that was so sincere years ago, feels so hard to hold today..
I would drown all my cruel words in the Bermuda triangle, I would kill all my previous thoughts with the heaviest sword..just to feel your subtle words enter my dismal heart, to get me back to life..
I would sell everything I have just to pass the oceans, though I know they are not enough..
I would cry a thousand tears but my cheeks got tired..

You made me feel so old when in me lies a hopeful child, you killed each part of me and threw it 2 thousand miles.
I still miss you..am I allowed to say so? I still need you..life without you is easy to let go..

I lost someone..yet I don't know who he/she is..

I miss you because..

You light up my nights in the darkest hours
Sun shines above the clouds in rainy showers
Butterflies flutter in the pale autumn lonely days
Roses blossom in the field, blooming they sway

I miss you when..

Trees shrivel in a shiny spring time
Winds run away, poems no more rhyme
When love weeps after abandonment
And fake words seem like a false trend

I miss you when I hear the word friendship
And my heart fails to shut my lips..

The times we had, the moments we cherish
Will be waiting for your comeback, will never perish..

Dedicated to each and everyone of my friends..I terribly miss you all.. =(

I will not submit
to your stupid flaws
You're not even a man
I'm no angel of yours

You're not in love
Only playing the fool
Thinking of a sweet love
By playing the cruel

Stick a paper to the mirror
right after writing my name
You'll know that my reverse is
Never submitting to love's game..

Photo by me.
Actually You know my name is "Nema", and the reverse is "Amen", so I thought I am the reverse of Amen..thus I do not submit to anything, and of course not love ;)

Countless fights
Endless nights..
With the same combat
Black stars
moldy scars
This strangles that
a friend died
a foe survived
I stand and slump
Tears frozen
Words unspoken
For the fool and the dumb
The one remains
Is the dissenting lane
The friend of the foe
I quiver and strive
Wanting to survive
In the midst of this woe..
Never mind me ..

"When your ego meets my pride, Sun will perish on the other side" -Me

-I had this quote in my mind while I was trying to sleep yesterday..
It was meant to describe those whose ego is killing them, and those whose pride will never be defeated.Hence, the fight could go for years, and the discussion could never end. This thinks he knows everything, That thinks he cannot be defeated.
And so nature will be the victim.

"An eye for an eye ends up making the whole world blind" -Ghandi

-What I understand from this quote, from my own point of view; I have a vision about war in this, to me it's like when two presidents fight to win, and each one of them is refusing to succumb or submit to the other one, this way their innocent people will be the victims, and of course the world would never really care about them ..

"There was a time when we could understand each other's silence, now we cannot even understand the spoken words" -My dear amazing inspiration "STILLNESS SPEAKS"

-This statement really saddens me, though it is beautiful to imagine how we understood each other's silence, now even the ones we love, we could never understand their silence, and of course nor their very spoken words..It's one of the reasons why the world is falling apart.

"You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time." -Charles F. Kettering

- This one explains how we always dwell in the past and forget our future, one of the reasons why we think life is unfair, while it's us who make it fair or unfair.

"The great question is not whether you have failed, but whether you are content with failure." -William Shakespeare

- It reminded me of this one "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me".
I believe Shakespeare here meant that failure is only a bliss, But to continue on knowing that your past is like this, is bravery. And life will fool you once, but you will get used to this and defeat it the next time =)

"All my life I used to wonder what I would become when I grew up. Then, about seven years ago, I realized that I was never going to grow up... that growing is an ever ongoing process." -M. Scott Peck

-This is part of my other blog when I said "you will never comprehend life perfectly", and a friend actually inspired me when I discussed it with him yesterday and he told me "There would be no point of living if you understood life in the perfect way".

This is a circle of learning and teaching..we'll never have enough until we die.

Thank you deviantart :)

Sometimes my skies cry
there's no earth to wipe those tears
Other times my stars shine
and the moon is hiding in fear
In the late night..
when owls moan in silence
and the trees wither with the sound
I learned that the sun will shine bright
the next day I open the curtains

I've learned that a child's smile
could mean a thousand thing
And an old man's stillness
Might cause ships to sink

My teachers taught me;
Life is more than just a smile
Barren laughs could mean
Faces that've been walking for miles

I was once told
that those chains of gold
Could always deceive..
and leave you in the mold

But one thing I know for sure
and learned to work it out
you are the unknown cure
to every pain screamed out loud.

Shit, I hate this :S