Silence keeps smudging the souls-
with it's tears that leave us incomplete
he was there yesterday and in the morrow,
Just not anymore today..


Rest In Peace my uncle ...

Dance like you mean it
Make circles in the ground
Smile like you feel it
Turn your world upside down

Jump to the lake
let fresh water in
The reflection you make
Is what you've been

A mirror reflection
Is nothing but a big lie
But the saddening rejection
Is the beauty that you deny

a BIG thank you to Stillness Speaks ..you were the reason why I wrote this cheerful thought, you truly are an inspiration to me :) please write on

One day I shall be sorry not for what I've made
And I will walk the road of loneliness, proud it is my fate
I need you not in my life, I'm a man and I was taught cruelty
Your existence is my sickness, I, to your love, am diseased
Let me stumble, let me crumble, let me fall to little parts
First my soul, my happiness, my sanity and my heart
For he who lives a slave to someone who only causes cracks
Is the one who eventually falls, while the other is still on track
I love you not, my heart was the cost, to your austere betrayal
You can break the hearts, smash the souls..but never..I'm not that frail

I blocked all the roads of pain
To not get to my heart
I seized all the good chances
that could lead to a beating pulse

I created an anti-pain umbrella

I put on thousands of skins
Pretending I could cease the falls
Pain comes abruptly with no expectations
And then all is defeating me

And my anti-pain umbrella dies..

Black is the new white
Hatred is the new love
Bloody kisses are the new lust
Dreams are nightmares dreamt of

Sad is the new happy
Torture is the new strife
Happy tears are blackened
Dead is the new alive

Where are my reasons to live
Or am I only living to die..?
Is this how it always sounds..
Am I truly living to die ??

Confusion ..


NB: This is NOT poetry..My blog was never meant to be poetry..it was meant to be poetic..thoughts and thoughts and thoughts.

Raindrops are vanishing
Anguish keeps taking over
No, please don't let the sun shine
I want to still be living here
In the dark

Close the curtains, let darkness prevail
With my ghosts, leave me there
Even if it sounded like I'm hallucinating
I don't give a damn, let me be me
The one addicted to thinking of you

No matter how pathetic it feels
To wish for things I cannot have
Hope keeps coming and drifting
False hope, with the right person
And he leaves me to die..

Let the pain absorb the soul
Forget about being whole
Let your heart shatter, beautifully
For you've fallen in love, deeply
It will hurt and it will heal
It will sound fake but sometimes real
You'll cry, you'll weep and smile
You'll be free, living in your own exile
Your world will be like an abrupt circle
You never know if you'll go straight or stumble
---------------------------------------------------
I'm sorry for the words I had to utter
I'm left here with my heart shattered
Beating slowly and sometimes fast
It hurts to say the pain will last
Amnesia is something I really wish for
To let you forget the pain I caused you before
I wish we could start all over, from the first Hello
But to keep the love in my heart, and you won't know

Death comes knocking on your door
You drop a tear and forever is sore
You stand on a snowy narrow lane
Tears flooding down your face with shame
No one visits her, like she is dead in the heart
Not a thing reminded you of her, now you're drifting apart
Why did you come back?
Just because your heart is cracked??
She's gone for good, I hope you're satisfied
Selfishness and betrayal were feeding you inside
Remorse is eating at you now, but for how long..
Will you cry for a body that is already gone?
Let your greed feed you again, go on your way
You've lost a chance and neglected what she used to say
Let her be, give her peace in her dirty coffin
And I hope torture will kill you from within

Lines are fading
slowly I disappear
the words I write vanish
Feelings are no longer sincere

Gloom rises
I only need isolation
the dead parts in me
Needn't any consolation

A heart of coldness
Rests inside my lies
I'm so perfect in this
the creation of disguise

Fresh scents touch my skin
A feeling that takes me in
Putting my soul at ease
Yet a feeling that doesn't please

Confusion evokes a mind distress
There's gotta be something I miss
I keep rising and falling, in vain
Thinking this will stop the pain

I can't define what is missing here
Love is on my side, yet there's fear
I'm afraid a day might come true
The day I will have to stop thinking of you

I smile
you giggle
You cry
I weep
I touch
You caress
You gloom
I break
I grieve
You fall
You whisper
I scream
I think
You daydream
We breathe
In and out
Inside of each others
We talk
with silence
Magically
We smile, we fall, we cry,we crawl, we never stopped dreaming, we never stopped yearning.
This is us

Begging and Pleading
With a heart bleeding
sunrise is sunset
I cannot fake it
Lies are spread
your heart I misled
Rumors are true
I'm not in love with you
I just need to hate
The thing I did create
The feelings of lust
Are now buried with dust
I am who I am
I always seem to sham
I'm a chaotic mind
With love and hate combined
Words of non-sense
State of stupid defense
But may I tell you this?
A feeling I suppress
I'm a liar, I'll say it thorough
Hate me but, I'll still be loving you

Sometimes thinking of you
makes me more tired than glad
For the end, I might detest..
with losing all what we now have

Beginnings are the easiest
Midsts are the wild desire
I pray everyday for a miracle to happen
with hearts eternally set on fire

I Love You ♥

I drink that cup of coffee alone..thoughts keep lingering in me invading my mind with cruelty.
Shadows of the night consuming my skin, leaving me so old, yet I'm somehow young
I left that black hole in his heart, not knowing it would hurt me the same way
I ended up being distracted, even by the slightest things I think of
It wasn't love, it was never meant to be like this..
I guess I was taken down by emotions
Does it have to hurt this way?
Being dragged by this love,or by that body's embraces?
Since when do I miss that feeling?? the lonely hearts' caresses.
I can't seem to have enough of this, even if it was just a stupid big lie
Sometimes lies are the best things that could happen to us, with denying what they are
I miss you..I can't believe I'm saying it..I just wish none of this was ever true
Since the moment you told me you loved me..I was already falling in love with you

I'm just like her..screams unheard, tears unshed, laughs of nonsense.
I hear myself, and she hears me, a world went down and been chained by pretense
I talk and smile and I giggle, but alas, no one hears what I ever say
I walk and scream and I cry, running in streets I become astray.
I'm like that voiceless puppet, there's no use of looking at my face.
Just a scary face, with a fake smile..yeah that's me...the fake
Voiceless, no moving, silent is such a friend to me and that doll
Scars, cracks here and there, perfections are what makes me whole
Look at these black eyes, there's nothing you'd find
a heart on my sleeve I wear, scars are hidden inside
Let that go, I'll never break free, it's just a useless try
She's my friend, the one that listens without asking me why

In between the fights
and the struggle of the soul
I need you
In between the love we share
the words said here and there
I need you
The secrets we tell with no fright
of being lonesome till eternity
I need you
The hugs, the kisses and the smiles
The unspoken words, the passion burned
I hear you
Imaginary touches, caresses and lust
The fit of the spaces between our fingers.
We daydream
Reveries of this burnt love, we tremble
warm snuggles, withdrawing shivers
We daydream
I love you's are till the end of time
Passion is just between him and I

I need you,
I hear you,
let's daydream forever,
because I love you