Have I told you before how lonesome I've always been..in the eyes of love..I was still the one who couldn't fight, nor surrender.
I'm standing here on the ashes of your soul, when it's too late to confess, the love that amputated me like a slender.
Too many words I had to say to you, time never betrayed me, it was just my heart, inside me lies a coward organ.
Too many stressed feelings blew me away, that I had to withdraw slowly, albeit it was more than I could ever stand.
I'm coming tonight to tell you how much my eyes are watered up with blackened tears, I'm just too weak to get over us
And although there was never really "us" in the first place..I even liked the imaginary husband and wife and their little fuss
I'm gazing at your epitaph, unable to believe it's your name carved so deeply right before my teary eyes.
Is it really just me and myself that are standing here, have you really left me alone in the ride???

Inject me with greed
take all the sanity left in my heart
for I'm living in a world alone
Thinking generosity is all I need

Slap me on my cheeks
two times for each one
Withhold me from my pride
you can beat me till I'm gone

Deprive me from my screams
Ignore all the wrath I hold
I'm all for this torture
Cut my veins, feel the bloody streams

I wasted a lifetime in sloth
Mistakes were made blindly
I lied, I cheated, I hurt
All happened with a smile filling me

Gluttony sickens the soul
a murderer I can prove to you
I thought I'm allowed to smile
while watching others desperately fall

Let go of that thought
I'm not as kind as I sound
Envy is eating at me
Goodness?? I will never rebound

Killing, hatred, greed and lust
it's all what I'm living for
It's too late to save my soul
It's like counting the pieces of dust

12:45 AM. 26th of Jan
Yeah, I'm inspired by this pic =))

I tried to think of a love song, a dedication to you, but only when I thought of it, words grew cliche and naive.
Nothing compares to writing 10-lined thoughts with words that only you would perceive.
minutes that pass by with the clock ticking, are days and months counted in my heart..
It's been exactly 120 minutes and I missed every good and even bad thing about you..
The world inside of me is breaking, without you it keeps falling apart
A thunderstorm takes place each time I hear your feet steps are fading through.
If you're going to fall, just take me with you, life has been cruel enough to stand.
I can feel your love already, without hugs, kisses, nor holding hands.
The smiles that you hit me with, keep taking every single part of my scanty soul
Uttering, laughing, smiling, even when you're wordless you make me amazingly whole.


Exactly 10 lines, lol

Yesterday when I was heading to bed to sleep..as usual thoughts always cross my mind when I'm lying in bed..
Here are some words to watch out for when you type..cause Internet typos can be really awful!!!

1-Never say Kidding..just type the abbreviation j.k (just kidding), for you might just find yourself saying Kissing
2-Never say you like the movie "Forrest Gump", for you might just slip and write hump.
3-Look clearly before you type "add", it might just be an insult turning it into "ass"
4-Don't tell someone they're Cool, for you might end up telling them Fool , which is by the way the total opposite, hehe.
5- While typing But, type it real slow..chances are you might be typing butt
6- Just don't mention Duck in your talks, that may lead to a fight for using Fuck
7- Why use Jell and embarrass yourself with a stupid hell typo ??
8- Be careful of using Bitch instead of hitch.
9- Last but not least baby..for god's sake, Say "sweetie" instead of honey, believe me, you'll end up saying hiney

And that's my dear friends is all I had to say..remember how much I love you and how much I don't want you to face embarrassing moments with the ones you love !!
Love you ;P
Thanks to a special friend "Nada" for helping..and my twin suggested the cool & fool typo :D

Stand on my ground
Look through my eyes
A feeling of disgust
lies beneath disguise
Hold the mud through my hand
please tell me if this is real
See the world of broken dreams
Tell me how it makes you feel

(Chorus)
Get me out of this vicious world
I'm stuck within my body and soul
Dwell in me, set me free
A perfect murder, with complete control

I don't wanna survive, will you take me alive?

Tread the roses with my feet
Never mind their beauty
Fake a smile through my lips
And go down with my gravity

(Chorus)
Get me out of this vicious world
I'm stuck within my body and soul
Dwell in me, set me free
A perfect murder, with complete control

I don't wanna survive, will you take me alive?

(Bridge)
Can you please free me from this misery?
But allow me to take you with me?
I'm not gonna survive, I'm barely alive

(Chorus)
Get me out of this vicious world
I'm stuck within my body and soul
Dwell in me, set me free
A perfect murder, with complete control


My first Song to write =]

battled and bruised
blood covers the wounds
body torn with no disguise
heart rusted with lies
feet tired of walking
Breaths seem like choking
a world of lies is mine
in my throne-I shine
Thorns wrapping me fast
a torment shall forever last
for what am I being here?
I wish none of this was real
In my torment I alone swing
It sounds inevitable, my end
Everyday I come to your place
which is now my eternal disgrace
hoping that one day I'll wane
From the sin that is my reign
Though I don't know what I've done
Giving up is because I never won..
I don't know if this can be a poem or not..but anyway..

Repetitive tones play in my mind, I cannot ignore their seducing melodies, though so sad and heartbreaking, I keep listening hoping something might set me at ease.
scratched pianos with a distorted music and sound, fingers playing softly, afraid they might smash.
Tears flooding as if it's the end of a colored blue sky, bloodstained wrists with painful goodbyes
Tones played in the wrong way, yet touching you deep down inside, windows broken with a dreadful tornado outside.
Thrones are nothing but a worldly expression, in fact we all are the same, it's just hard to realize you're no different..and there's no one to blame.
Get me out of this vicious world, if only there is a way..let the sun burn my skin with the flames, let me die today.
Intricacy of this world I can no more sustain, there's nothing to live for, I should be happy but I'm only tasting pain.
Let those tones keep on playing and repeat eternally, for I know there's nothing like a piano played for hearts with no remedy..


I'm not in a good mood..don't ask me to write something good !!