You told me we were infinity--

I saw you struggling in bed
closing your eyes and opening them again-
It wasn't long until you lost your breath..

Tonight you came to me
and the scent of your perfume,
I could no longer smell.
The breath of your agony..vanished?
How come?
You held my hand and told me:
From now on, we are eternity
Pulling me close to you, I wondered
While you enjoy embracing me;
Why can't I feel alive anymore?

That night I cried dry tears,
Smiled for no reason,
And pretended I could touch you,
But I suffered..

-you lied-

Once upon a time
You told me we were infinite..
Were we..?

Plant me a tree that would grow only at night; let all my dreams hang by a half cut off rope. 12 at midnight everything will reveal itself, 7 in the morning it will vanish once again.
-I killed a part of me while dreaming, revived another one-
Let the buds not blossom, they're better away from reality, let the sun kill all of my dreams; no, I don't feel like dreaming-not until forever comes.
Hang them randomly, don't let "them" know I'm crazy..
Sham intimidation, gauzy thoughts..run through dreams. Tears of regret, when there's nothing to regret..run across the dreamer after waking up.
I wonder..would I not dream again, if they cut all my night trees once I'm asleep?
Would I...would I be traumatized..?

Henceforth, I'll be ready to die..just cut them off ..

(I hate dreaming ....)

Okay..I haven't been in a good mood since yesterday..but I thought I'd share this with you :)
A very dead friend of mine posted them in our club.
Crazy Questions! ;-)

- Why people are so scared of mice,which are much smaller than us, when no one seems to be scared of Micky Mouse, who is bigger than us?

- Why doesn't McDonald's sell hotdogs?

- If, in a baseball game, the batter hits a ball splitting it right down the center with half the ball flying out of the park and the other half being caught, what is the final ruling?

- Why do people think that swaying their arm back and forth would change the direction of a bowling ball?

- When does it stop being partly cloudy and start being partly sunny?

- If ghosts can walk through walls and glide down stairs, why don't they fall through the floor?

- How can something be "new" and "improved"? if it's new, what was it improving on?

- If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?

- Do you yawn in your sleep?

- Do you wake up or open your eyes first?

- Why do people say "heads up" when you should duck?

- Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

- when a pregnant lady has twins, is there 1 or 2 umbilical cords?

- Why do they call it "getting your dog fixed" if afterwards it doesn't work anymore?

- On Gilligan's Island, how did Ginger have so many different outfits when they were only going on a 3 hour tour?

- Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?

Enjoy ;)

An elusive painting-
discolored;
black horizon
in the mid of day,
dew drops fall
on deceasing plants
of copper leaves
spring:
camouflage

I took a swim through the colors:
-when night prevailed-
dark blue skies
once the moon committed suicide..

it was a starless view
caught me for the wrong hue-
feebly
blind

I beheld meteorites settling
on my earth,
while in pain I wondered
how everything's changed
to devastate
my constellation

Ashore, I clung to the last thread,
where my painting was still beautiful,
to find seashells retreated with the waves
and stones crying on their own

I took all the colors and walked away
pursued the light;
too late it was, for reaching the doors
of salvation
And I'm left
forever
forgotten

Written July 18th, 10:33 PM

-Yay finally a poem =) this is for a contest between my club and another club on the site poems-and-quotes.

Poetry has been the sun that kept rising within me; in the morning it becomes so fresh and addictive, yet in the night-under the moonlight-it becomes the light to my dark days..
Occasionally, winds cover up all my skies and the world of poetry lets its winds pour me with a rain of trite words-it breaks me like a fragile glass..this is when writers block takes place.
Once upon a time I was so addicted, today I'm standing like a crying coward unable to express what I feel (or don't feel) with poetry.
Metaphors have lost their originality, rhyme has lost its sense of music and the beautiful rhythm it created in the poems. And similes, oh I miss looking for creativity and impressive imagery..
The last poem I wrote, which was Perpetuation, failed me (Maybe I'm exaggerating) and I still can't call it a poem..here if you wish to judge Perpetuation.

I'm not sure whether I can be the poetry addict of before..this just keeps getting worse..

A year and half passed without me crying over these songs:
I was traveling alone, and I was facing one of the most horrible situations, the situation of losing someone-friend or lover-whom you totally loved.
I had my mobile on the music player..and here we go:

1-First I heard the song "Feels Like Tonight" for Daughtry, I broke down in tears, especially when he sang "I can't believe I'm broken inside"..it felt so horrible.
2- I had the song "One Heart" for Celine Dion..can you believe such a beautiful, cheerful song would make someone cry? lol.
Now I really believe in the quote that says " I never knew looking back at the tears would make me laugh".
3- There came Westlife with their two songs-probably the only two songs I like for Westlife-which were "Us Against The World" and "Something right"..Both are very good and cheery..You gotta check "Something Right"s lyrics: Here .
4- I don't really remember the rest of the songs..I remember most of the songs weren't that bad, not the songs that would make you cry at least..Now I listen to "Feels Like Tonight" and smile :] for back there I was broken and today I'm totally healed ! *Alhamdulellah*

Here are some songs I love listening to any time of the day :
* Enya-Only Time.
* Poets Of The Fall-Locking up the sun, Carnival Of Rust, Dawn, Late Goodbye, Where Do We Draw The Line, Sleep, Illusion And Dream And Maybe Tomorrow(Is a better day)..Actually all Poets Of The Fall albums are so awesome, especially that their lyrics are so damn poetic <3
*Red-Pieces (My fave song ever!!)
* Frou Frou-Le Go.
*Seether-Waste, Rise Above This.
*Amaral & Chetes - Si tu no vuelves.

Now some music:
*Edward Shearmur-Epiphany (This is my fave music, I wrote a poem about it)
*Apocalyptica-Path
*Apocalyptica-Hope
*Secret Garden-Serenade To Spring.
*Apocalyptica-Farewell
*Buddha Bar iii-Faithless.

I know they are a lot..but seriously, poets of the fall songs are a must listen!
Enjoy :]

Last night I lain on bed
surrounded by sleep,
dreams,
-perhaps nightmares-
The dawn has come,
the sun has risen
and..
Still dreams have lain with me

I thought I could tame
this insomniac mind
with thoughts on love
whilst the sun rises.

I thought I could talk
my cerulean dreams
-out loud-
kill my plum nightmares
with a touch of
Scarlet evasiveness

Today I remained
another insomniac
in the reign of sleep,
and though it killed all my senses,
I could not help but fight;
for tonight..
my dreams will roam
just like each past night ..


-Actually this happened indeed, today morning I couldn't sleep; Yes I'm an insomniac!

For a moment, happiness did creep through the minds; smudging all the sad words in my dictionary with a touch of a beautiful existence.
Grieve, dejection, sorrow and hatred vanished, empty places for Good, Decency, Stupendous, and Humor.
Pain is now Power, Insanity is Incredible..replace all my senses of a harsh existence with a small touch of beauty.
Create fabulous smiles instead of fake ones, let the world not drown but dive..to a relieving persistence.
Tomorrow I will replace dread with beautiful downfalls..I will create my own world, and to words I'll be their master.

Thanks to STILLNESS SPEAKS :)
This is somehow like the one that me and my friends had on facebook (25 random things about me)..except for this is only 7 things about me..I promise I'll be accurate :)

1- I'm a linguist: Arabic, English and Spanish are what I speak. I'm a spelling and a grammar freak, if you have bad English, I guess you'll have troubles dealing with me (not that I'm perfect but I focus too much in the words that people say/type to make sure they're right) sometimes I google them, or google what I want to say to make sure it's right haha.
2- I'm very emotional when it comes to any relationship, especially friendships..my friends mean the world to me!
3- I sometimes feign contemplation at the streets, but truth is I look for someone to help, I really love helping people, though I take too many "golpes" (The Spanish word for "hit") from them.
4- I'm a workaholic, I can't live a day without revising anything in the languages I study (No not a nerd, because English is my passion) and I don't know what I'd do if I didn't work just after I graduate Insha'allah.
5- Most people who only know me from my poetry would say I'm such a gloomy and a pessimist , on the contrary, I'm mostly an optimist..I just see it this way: If I write a happy poem I'd be idolizing life, and this is total crap lol.
6- I have very low self-esteem..but I'm working on it :)
7- I'm an aquaphobic, most of my nightmares were about me drowning in the ocean in the middle of the night..two things I would never want to die of, fire and drowning.


I don't really have many blog readers to tag..but I'd love to read anyone's post :) so, you all are tagged =)
Once again thank you friend =]

Like a star shining in your own constellation, you raise your hands to catch him, but vanity's all you see. Heart wrenched and ached before the doors of death, bringing you nothing but invisible pain, yet something to see.
Rue the conscience for its death before birth; you killed the life of thy..breaths of remorse are eating at you, I apologize, it's too late for regression.
Take another step towards the door, let all your constellations fall; there's no turning back. Thine tears of pleading could never return what shall die within minutes for your sickness.
The light of day conceals the darkness of night..sanguine sorrow should scream the dejection, today-whilst the sun rays absorb the pain-yours absorbed your soul at night..
I'm sorry for the punishment, there must be a dark side of the moon, Green eyes will speak goodbyes, while blue moons will sleep today.

And your ashes will completely fade to eternal sleep