Have I told you before how lonesome I've always been..in the eyes of love..I was still the one who couldn't fight, nor surrender.
I'm standing here on the ashes of your soul, when it's too late to confess, the love that amputated me like a slender.
Too many words I had to say to you, time never betrayed me, it was just my heart, inside me lies a coward organ.
Too many stressed feelings blew me away, that I had to withdraw slowly, albeit it was more than I could ever stand.
I'm coming tonight to tell you how much my eyes are watered up with blackened tears, I'm just too weak to get over us
And although there was never really "us" in the first place..I even liked the imaginary husband and wife and their little fuss
I'm gazing at your epitaph, unable to believe it's your name carved so deeply right before my teary eyes.
Is it really just me and myself that are standing here, have you really left me alone in the ride???

Inject me with greed
take all the sanity left in my heart
for I'm living in a world alone
Thinking generosity is all I need

Slap me on my cheeks
two times for each one
Withhold me from my pride
you can beat me till I'm gone

Deprive me from my screams
Ignore all the wrath I hold
I'm all for this torture
Cut my veins, feel the bloody streams

I wasted a lifetime in sloth
Mistakes were made blindly
I lied, I cheated, I hurt
All happened with a smile filling me

Gluttony sickens the soul
a murderer I can prove to you
I thought I'm allowed to smile
while watching others desperately fall

Let go of that thought
I'm not as kind as I sound
Envy is eating at me
Goodness?? I will never rebound

Killing, hatred, greed and lust
it's all what I'm living for
It's too late to save my soul
It's like counting the pieces of dust

12:45 AM. 26th of Jan
Yeah, I'm inspired by this pic =))

I tried to think of a love song, a dedication to you, but only when I thought of it, words grew cliche and naive.
Nothing compares to writing 10-lined thoughts with words that only you would perceive.
minutes that pass by with the clock ticking, are days and months counted in my heart..
It's been exactly 120 minutes and I missed every good and even bad thing about you..
The world inside of me is breaking, without you it keeps falling apart
A thunderstorm takes place each time I hear your feet steps are fading through.
If you're going to fall, just take me with you, life has been cruel enough to stand.
I can feel your love already, without hugs, kisses, nor holding hands.
The smiles that you hit me with, keep taking every single part of my scanty soul
Uttering, laughing, smiling, even when you're wordless you make me amazingly whole.


Exactly 10 lines, lol

Yesterday when I was heading to bed to sleep..as usual thoughts always cross my mind when I'm lying in bed..
Here are some words to watch out for when you type..cause Internet typos can be really awful!!!

1-Never say Kidding..just type the abbreviation j.k (just kidding), for you might just find yourself saying Kissing
2-Never say you like the movie "Forrest Gump", for you might just slip and write hump.
3-Look clearly before you type "add", it might just be an insult turning it into "ass"
4-Don't tell someone they're Cool, for you might end up telling them Fool , which is by the way the total opposite, hehe.
5- While typing But, type it real slow..chances are you might be typing butt
6- Just don't mention Duck in your talks, that may lead to a fight for using Fuck
7- Why use Jell and embarrass yourself with a stupid hell typo ??
8- Be careful of using Bitch instead of hitch.
9- Last but not least baby..for god's sake, Say "sweetie" instead of honey, believe me, you'll end up saying hiney

And that's my dear friends is all I had to say..remember how much I love you and how much I don't want you to face embarrassing moments with the ones you love !!
Love you ;P
Thanks to a special friend "Nada" for helping..and my twin suggested the cool & fool typo :D

Stand on my ground
Look through my eyes
A feeling of disgust
lies beneath disguise
Hold the mud through my hand
please tell me if this is real
See the world of broken dreams
Tell me how it makes you feel

(Chorus)
Get me out of this vicious world
I'm stuck within my body and soul
Dwell in me, set me free
A perfect murder, with complete control

I don't wanna survive, will you take me alive?

Tread the roses with my feet
Never mind their beauty
Fake a smile through my lips
And go down with my gravity

(Chorus)
Get me out of this vicious world
I'm stuck within my body and soul
Dwell in me, set me free
A perfect murder, with complete control

I don't wanna survive, will you take me alive?

(Bridge)
Can you please free me from this misery?
But allow me to take you with me?
I'm not gonna survive, I'm barely alive

(Chorus)
Get me out of this vicious world
I'm stuck within my body and soul
Dwell in me, set me free
A perfect murder, with complete control


My first Song to write =]

battled and bruised
blood covers the wounds
body torn with no disguise
heart rusted with lies
feet tired of walking
Breaths seem like choking
a world of lies is mine
in my throne-I shine
Thorns wrapping me fast
a torment shall forever last
for what am I being here?
I wish none of this was real
In my torment I alone swing
It sounds inevitable, my end
Everyday I come to your place
which is now my eternal disgrace
hoping that one day I'll wane
From the sin that is my reign
Though I don't know what I've done
Giving up is because I never won..
I don't know if this can be a poem or not..but anyway..

Repetitive tones play in my mind, I cannot ignore their seducing melodies, though so sad and heartbreaking, I keep listening hoping something might set me at ease.
scratched pianos with a distorted music and sound, fingers playing softly, afraid they might smash.
Tears flooding as if it's the end of a colored blue sky, bloodstained wrists with painful goodbyes
Tones played in the wrong way, yet touching you deep down inside, windows broken with a dreadful tornado outside.
Thrones are nothing but a worldly expression, in fact we all are the same, it's just hard to realize you're no different..and there's no one to blame.
Get me out of this vicious world, if only there is a way..let the sun burn my skin with the flames, let me die today.
Intricacy of this world I can no more sustain, there's nothing to live for, I should be happy but I'm only tasting pain.
Let those tones keep on playing and repeat eternally, for I know there's nothing like a piano played for hearts with no remedy..


I'm not in a good mood..don't ask me to write something good !!

I was looking for something to inspire me..but nothing came with use, I'm thinking of letting my fingers type like there's nothing to lose.
Lights switched off, slight hope I do see..They've told me there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, even if it was wee.
My hidden insanity controls me, I seem like a dim moon behind a cloud..with stars around it so shiny, but only like a tiny piece in the crowd
"Needless, betrayed and abandoned" I think, without having my tears to hide, like a poison of a dead rose it takes me, and to my insanity I'm tied
Yet no one ever doubted, how intelligent and funny I am, people are so lame, it's hard to let them understand.
Even my darkest thoughts I write with a silly rhyme..this hidden insanity will never make me change in time.
If you do think you're insane, I'm telling you "Welcome to my life", However never forget I once said at the end of a dark tunnel, THERE IS light !!

I know my words don't really make sense..I just didn't know what to write..

When you enter the hall preparing for the exam, haven't you ever asked yourself "why do I even give a damn?"?
hold the paper and gather up your guts, read it slowly, never give up
they're just some damned trivial questions, nothing to worry about, let the pen go with the flow, never drown yourself in doubts.
Make sure you write all the answers with no single flaw, but always remember the doctor might be sick, bastard and low !
Walk out the door drawing a smile upon your face, just no matter how hard the exam was, rub it out with a quick erase.
Never answer anyone's questions, they'll make you feel like you've written some bullshit, smile, chat, laugh and make the best fun out of it.
Right after going home give yourself a relieving rest, sleep, watch some tv and then prepare yourself for the next test
Always remember to smile, exams are such ridiculous trap, however every year you'll be facing the same old crap !

This is for my lovely readers for telling me to post something cheerful =] I hope it will make you laugh :D

This time I come to you striped of my feelings, I don't know what to say, what to ask for, I wanna stand on my feet, just gazing at the beauty of your soul, and how much you make me feel like a new baby born.
I laugh, and I cry, sometimes I even hide myself behind you so that no one would see me, for I know they'd just stare and call me crazy. But I have no other choice, you make me feel like finding the things I'm missing, all the year around..I only visit you on holidays, but even our talk is with no sound..
My disrupted soul has no remedy, I can only laugh, cry and watch my world fall apart..it's veritable, everything is twisting from light to dark. The world is full of greed, hatred and betrayal, it's such a pitiful attitude, watching people bleed here and there..
I wish I could write something delightful, but my words are restricted to misery, just as my friend says "It's easier to write about downfall than about victory"
I'm not much of talker, the dejection and distress cannot be worded, I hate to say that but the end of the world is approaching ..

Just to let you know..you're the one thing I whine up to and your silence relieves me..I'm your contemplator and you're my answered plea ..

Your cold heart, it burns my desires that reside in my soul..I shed tears day and night, and you only keep watching me become torn.
I try to talk to you, but you're blinded by your egoistic self..I don't know for how long will this last, I hope it's something that we both felt.
I watch my roses die alone, and the sun sets my delusions on fire, I wonder why do I keep these hallucinations in my mind, you're never gonna fulfill my desire.
Still I keep loving you, it kills me how much I want it to end, I can't be your lover and I never will make a good friend.
I'm gonna have to watch myself bleed, and awfully ignite, I hope you're satisfied now.. you've amputated my soul while I only sought your light.
I hate you, I disdain everything about your life, loving you was a mistake I made, Watch me as I die, satisfy your lust by the one that you slayed.

Inspiration is growing dead,tears I shed of secrets untold, happiness has become just another reason to die, simply because it slowly breaks the soul.
I bleed feelings that I couldn't hold, bursting and falling to my knee, nothing grows beautiful, everything wilts with this cold, god I just want to flee.
My skin is growing old, how come I'm still nineteen, albeit I feel everything is drifting away, and everyday has the same old scene.
Those who deserve to live, they repulsively meet death, it's such a painful goodbye, watching them catch their final breath.
Roses keep fading away, trees grow to blossom yellow, seasons fatally die, just another cause of sorrow.
War has become our known way of peace, watching victims bleed is our lust, I'm holding the pen unable to write, this world is creating my feeling of disgust.
we've killed every part of the society, women, children are leaving a black remark, even poets are killed by us, today I witnessed the death of a poet's heart.



Inspired from my poem "Death Of a Poet's Heart"..for further details visit my P&Q account -->